So it’s almost 4am and I have yet to go to sleep. I am literally processing all things from the day (now yesterday) and week. It’s only at a time like this does your flesh try to “think” that it runs you. Already tonight the temptations of the flesh can be felt so heavily. It lead me to start thinking how many people are awake right now….debating if they are going to do that one thing they SWORE to themselves and to God that they would not do again. That drug, that video, the 10th meal, sleeping in a bed that’s not yours with someone that is not yours…. And your wondering to yourself,”what am I doing…..?”
You might even take to beating yourself up mentally because you promised you would not do it. You feel ashamed or condemned. Paul had the same issue:
“So the trouble is not with the law, for it is spiritual and good. The trouble is with me, for I am all too human, a slave to sin. I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate. But if I know that what I am doing is wrong, this shows that I agree that the law is good. So I am not the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it. And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.
I want to do what is right, but I can’t. I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. But if I do what I don’t want to do, I am not really the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
I have discovered this principle of life—that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong.I Love God’s law with all my heartBut there is another power within me that is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord. So you see how it is: In my mind I really want to obey God’s law, but because of my sinful nature I am a slave to sin.”
Romans 7:14-25 NLT
http://bible.com/116/rom.7.14-25.nlt (yes I copied and pasted from the bible app. Note* I broke up the scriptures in a way that would make it easy on the eyes, it’s not necessarily at the physical verse breaks)
It’s a big struggle. I was listening to a podcast by one of my favorite speakers Pastor Judah Smith of City Church, and is whole message was based on this entire verse. I will post it down below so you can hear it. It was a defining moment and life changing moment for me. Hopefully you will get something from it too!
Six week Journey -Part Two https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/city-church-judah-smith-audio/id336817472?mt=2&i=361325571
I’m praying for you and remember it’s a movement not just a moment!