So I just heard the song How Do You Love Me (click to hear the song) by Sango feat. SPZRKT (some of my favorite artist). First of all I loved it! It really is powerful and brought so much awareness to Gods grace! I think it is a real life song that so many of us actually experience The song asks a question “How do you love me? I said the last time was the last time. How do you love me when the last time ain’t the last time.” I can definitely relate to this. In my story I mentioned a time that I was watching videos that really could lead to no pure thought. I remember sitting thinking to myself in the dark ( because we don’t do anything bad in the light really unless we are in full blast bound by our secret sins. First, “Chelsee what are you doing?” Second, Why do you keep doing this? Why do you keep going here, you know they are not good for you.” There were definitely times where I would think… ” God how can you still love me after this, not only love me but bless me at the same time even though I am clearly struggling in a certain area ( what ever area that may be for you) There was always that day that I would say ok this is the last time, this is the last video…..but until recently.. the last time was indeed NOT the last time.
We all can take refuge in the thought that sometimes we struggle with things and do things that we don’t want to do, but can’t stop doing. Paul had the same issue and he spoke about it in Romans 7:15-24 ( I would recommend reading the entire chapter, which talks about struggling with sin)
“I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in my. For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do – this I keep doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me.
What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue from this body that is subject to death?”
But isn’t it awesome that we have an answer to this last question?! God! He has so much grace for us! That He still chooses to love us beyond our struggles and is just waiting on us to realize that we CAN NOT live this life with out him. That when we fall we need his love to catch us and heal us! I know it is not easy some times but God is there for us. God is holding on to us and waiting for us. my favorite line of the song is ” You gave me everything you’ve got, you gave me everything you are” that is such a beautiful line. God is so merciful and he is not shy to give it!
#PMAD Question in the light:
What is that one area that you need to give to God to help you break chains on? How are you going to give that area to him?
I realize and acknowledge that I have been struggling with ( insert area). I have been trying to handle it on my own but I realize that I can not get out of this bind with out you. Forgive me for being impatient and trying to handle my life on my own, in my own way. Daddy, help me to be so uncomfortable when I expose myself to (insert area) that it makes me want to flee from the situation. God I know that you alway give me a way out. Give me the strength to move when that way presents it’s self. If that means a call from a friend, a commercial, a knock on the door, what ever you see fit God. Set your love heavy on my heart as a reminder that you want only whats best for me, and that only YOU can give that to me God! Thank you that you do not hold back your grace and mercy from me. I thank you in advanced for the chains that you are breaking in my life daily. Daddy I am so grateful that when I mess up your unconditional love for me never changes. God I love you and no matter what I will continue to seek you and to follow you. Protect me God, protect my mind and my heart. In Jesus name, Amen.